Of smoking

This subject is a sensitive matter.I don't blame people for smoking but as much as i detest smoking , im afraid it would be a matter of months/years before i pick up smoking.Yes, Im a pessimist.
Why would i say that?I've heard of countless people who detest smokers and hate the thought of smoking and in the end , became what they hated;smokers.Those stories usually doesn't affect me and my resolve but there's one that really had me question myself "Would i ever smoke?"
It happens to be my childhood friend James*. He, too, hated the thought of smoking.After he graduated from secondary school , I thought to myself "There's no way he could take up smoking anymore."I mean , people using become more rebellious at that age and learn to think more maturely after secondary school years.Then, he took up smoking at the age of 20.TWENTY ;mind you.
And so , here i am , just a 17 year old child and if someone can start smoking at the age of 20;then I cant strike out the probabilty of me smoking either.So,the next time someone ask me if i ever smoke , i would just answer " Not yet." To me, "never" is too big a word for me right now .Maybe , when im 21, I could proudly say " I never smoke."But right now, one never knows.
I dont know why i blog about this at such an unholy hour...Maybe I'm afraid I would smoke one fine day ...and kill me if you ever see me smoke..PLEASE.

P.S:Sorry, dont mind me and my ranting.Can't sleep -_-